Feelings

We went to counselling last week. We got alot of things out on the table. This week has been good. Not sure if its just holding back or its real change. I don't know where my feelings are right now. I guess I have been numb for so long now its hard to find them. I have lost so much of my self that I am not sure what I should be feeling. My one girlfriend has been helping me by getting me to go out with her. It really helps alot. Sometimes I feel like a teenager trying things out for the first time. We go again on Monday. We have a homework assignment. We need to grade our marriage. Its different aspects of our marriage we need to grade. We are not allow to discuss it till our appointment. Then after that we need to think about it for 2 days before we can talk about it again. I think we may be far off on alot of things. I will let you know.