Back on Track

We seem to be back on track. Thank God!! I think once he gets things off his chest he feels much better. I have to admit I still go back to when we lost the house we were going to buy. I still feel the pain in my heart. It will be a year in 4 days. I think it might take another year to really feel better about the whole house issue. When I do think about it my eyes tear up my chest hurts. My husband and I have heard the word no for so long now you think we would be use to it. When people say it was meant to be that to me feels like a sack of shit.

Some times it just seems that life isn't going your way. You sit back and watch your friends have their good times, yes sometimes bad times. It seems to be more good then bad. They go on vacations have great Christmas's' and birthday parties for their children. You just wonder what you did so wrong in life to be where you are.

Don't get me wrong I know there are people alot worst off then me. We just seem to be stuck in that spot of too much money for help but not enough to pay all the bills on time.

Worried

Things seemed as if we were going back to the old ways. My husband has been getting angry at everything again. I tried to do what our therapist said to do but it did not help. So then I get angry. Which turns in to a major fight. Well it was time for our therapy apt. He didn't want me to go with him. I said this is our marriage so its our problem we need to go together. I called our therapist two hours before our apt. letting her know I needed to talk about how my husband has been acting. So she took us in individually for about 10 minutes each.

Well I found out several things that have been his triggers. One our daughter bought her own house. (In the past we were all going to buy a house together, the buyer of our house backed out. It broke our hearts) Then the guy who it his car with the company truck told him since he did that now he not getting his raise. He said it has if my husband should not have said anything. OH WELL. He doesn't deserve a raise.

So now that everything is out in the open I hope things will come down. I not sure how to block this out. I need to find a way to listen and not take it personally.